Lord I’m struggling y’all. I’m signing into an AA meeting even though I don’t love meetings. I feel so alone. Almost 90 days and I’m more miserable than ever. This was not the case last time I got sober. I was stupid happy for about 10 months and relapsed at 14 months. Now that I’m back at it, I hate everything and don’t know what to do. I’m doing the damn thing. I work out constantly and found a fun group fitness class. I do yoga, meditate and journal for the first hour of my day. I was attending therapy but it was not a match. My therapist canceled my last appointment and that was that I guess. I’m doing well at work. I have a boyfriend that loves me. But I think he’s at the end of his rope with me cause I’m just miserable to be around. I know it’s not true but I think it would almost be easier at this point to drink. I’ve been trying to get sober for 7 years. I’m just so damn tired. I’m sorry this is so depressing. I know I have a lot of good in my life and I just can’t see it. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong other than being in my head

I love my boyfriend so much but I’m at the point where I feel like I should just leave because I’m making his life worse.

This is a pity party I’m sorry lol I know there is good. Just needing some kind words and maybe someone who relates

Love you guys thanks for being here