I’ve unexpectedly had to share a hotel room with a person I just met yesterday for a work training event, and as an introvert with insomnia used to sleeping alone this has been pretty lame.

I haven’t been able to sleep well at all and so all day yesterday I felt like shit and felt super awkward trying to socialize with my new coworkers.

All my coworkers wanted to go out for drinks and I, being a responsible sober person, declined to join them. But sitting alone in my hotel room, stressing about the day I broke down and went and got a couple beers.

Just two beers, and nothing bad even happened. But I’m still really disappointed. I didn’t even really want to drink. If I was home I wouldn’t have drank. I’m not trying to excuse myself but I just started feeling so down about myself not being able to socialize without my crutch.

47 days down the drain. Back to day 1…