I feel like I don’t have the commitment. My life is great for the most part and my drinking doesn’t affect my relationships or my job, that I’m aware of at least. But I’m tired of feeling like shit and I want a longer healthy life. I don’t have a major catalyst to remind me to stick with it other than my test results.

By day 5 I start feeling good again and I can’t get past it. It’s always when I’m bored. I try to keep busy but it’s almost like a switch I flip off. I don’t think about it I just grab one. By day 5 I’m feeling happier, healthier, more energy and yet I find myself getting another drink and starting over again.

How did you break the cycle?