So, three weeks ago I was at a bar and ordered a pint of Bschorle (a non-alcoholic drink made of malt and apple juice). The waiter got it wrong and brought me a pint of hard cider. I didn't realized it until I finished drinking it and felt a buzz in my head. And honestly, I should've called it a day and stop here. But after more than three months of sobriety, alcohol took control of my brain and I – willfully, this time – ordered a strong beer. Then I went home, and since I told my wife I'd bring something to eat, I stopped by Burger King. And with my menu, didn't took my usual Coke Zero, but a beer. And, finally, before hoping on the bus, I stopped by a crepe stand and bought a beer that I drank during the journey.

Honestly it wasn't too bad and I didn't felt like shit the next day, given that I stopped drinking fairly early. But since then, every 2 or 3 days I'm back on my old pattern of starting to drink, usually during the day when my wife's not home. I buy two or three beers, telling to myself that I'll stop there, but once I've drank them, I always go back to the nearest store and buy two or three more. And honestly I feel like shit about it. I already lost my job last month, I don't wanna fall back on my alcohol issue on top of it. But I don't really know where to start. I think I'll start hanging out here a bit more. It helped me last time.

Anyway, IWNDWYT

P.S. : Maybe we should start fining people serving alcohol to people who ordered non-alcoholic drinks the same way we fine them when they serve alcohol to minors.