I don't know if these sorts of posts are allowed here, but let me say...

I grew up in one of the worst kind of environments you can imagine here in the US. I've been disabled my entire life with multiple disabilities. I've been through absolute hell for most of my life. I dropped out in the 6th grade, but I've always been one of the "smart kids", I just hated my school environment. FF to now, I recently got into trading on the market. I've never been able to really get or hold a job, I've been scraping by on less than $1000 a month for all of my life. I've been making at least $20 a day with a $5000 account with paper trading over a month now with a system I follow. I have about $5000 IRL to trade with, I feel fucking shook y'all. The idea of having security, of the absence of fear surrounding not having a roof over my head, or food to eat is almost too much to bear. I've never had this the entire 35 years I've been on this planet.

How do you even deal with this much potential joy after years and years of anxiety and depression? I'd be happy just making a tiny bit extra, the thought of making $20 a day is just nauseating.