Hello, I'm posting here for the first time.

I am 19 years old and after I have turned 20 in the summer next year, I want to get my tubes tied. I've been looking for doctors willing to do the procedure and I have found one doing it for 18 folk, but since I found this clinic, I decided to take at least 6 months to be super sure before scheduling anything.

I never wanted kids. As a child, I never even liked playing with puppets. I've been dreaming about a big career since I'm 12 years old and now that I'm learning my dream job, I cannot imagine sacrificing anything of it. Especially because I already have to travel a lot, despite only be an event management trainee. I want to keep traveling a lot and have the freedom of moving places and hopefully also countries for this job.

I have a lot of reasons to not want kids, like my future job, my love for freedom, overpopulation, the earth's decay or my family's health record (I'm healthy now, but throat cancer has been very common in my family, as well as strong myopia, that has sadly hit me hard as well).

My problem is, while I am very sure, I am scared of abandonment from my loved ones. My parents are very sure that it is bad for me and my boyfriend feels very uncomfortable with me getting my tubes tied. I see where everyone is coming from and they all support me really great at everything else otherwise, so I take it all into consideration. I'm also very scared that they will leave me and not keep supporting me after the procedure. But when I imagine that I get pregnant now, I feel a lot of anxiety (my mother had 2 miscarriages and almost died birthing me) and I would probably consider suicide if I had to have to bear a child. It's not that I hate children, but I just don't want to be a half-assed mother to a child, that will have to deal with the consequences of climate change, overpopulation and a worsening economical state.

Non-permanent birth control is sadly not an option for me because of medical issues.

Should I listen to my loved ones and wait/not do it? Are there any consequences if I get my tubes tied at 20 years? Has anyone here done this at my age or with similar circumstances and can share their experience? I would really like to hear all of it! Thank you very much. :)