Just frustrated because I am now a parent of 3 not able to go do any fun couple things with my fiance because we are poor and have her kids almost all the time and my new one all the time. I went straight to that from single very lonely man that had never been in a long term relationship before with no one to go do fun couple things with.

I'm frustrated because there was no in between where I got to be in a relationship and able to go do things as a couple.

we meet in September of 2019 and bio father could only watch the kids all of 3 times, only once over night, until the quarantine hit and we just couldn't go anywhere anyway.

Now I would like to go to a club with her but we have to try and plan around Bio father maybe being able to watch their kids and maybe finding a babysitter we can afford and trust.

I don't know what to do or if anything can be done other then wait 18 fucking years. I'm tired and worn out and feel like I'm going to die with out having done the things I wanted to do. yes I know very few people get what the want but I'm feeling it hard right now.