I know that this question gets asked a lot. I am so stressed out since being with this family. For two years it was good, nothings changed. By the 3rd year I feel like I am strung out. I am younger than my partner by a decade or so… In the last year, I’ve had alot of health issues, got a corporate job, started making good money (however the job causes a lot of stress). He has a super high conflict divorce which is starting to wear me down.

So I’ve taken to over medicating by using sleep pills at night because I can barely sleep. I feel anxious. My job is at risk (they are doing a reorg). My finances aren’t great because I’ve been overspending -mostly on Xmas gifts for his kids, he didn’t ask me to… I just wanted to.

We just took a week vacation to a ski resort which ended up putting my partner in the hospital and me having to take care of the kids while he was in there. It was awful. I couldn’t wait to get home.

I love him a lot, and I know the grass isn’t always greener on the other side. But f**k I am struggling.

Is it worth it? Am I blaming my rough patch on him??