I left him. Never married, but lived together and our lives were together. He has three daughters he sees every other weekend, and my two daughters every weekend. I don't think he ever really loved me, only what I was to him that benefited him and his children. So I left because I finally accepted what I knew all along: he didn't want me or my kids in his life.

I am so worried to tell my kids they won't see their sisters anymore. They will be devastated. They always got along so well and did everything together when they saw each other. I can't afford family therapy to help them through this. I guess Friday I will load up with all their favorite foods, games, books, movies, and crafts and just purely focus on moving through this together. I would go see my sister who is my rock but she has COVID. Sigh.

So after we wade through this I will leave this group, because I won't have stepkids anymore. Sometimes it's just not meant to be.