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I've been on this group for a while. Things I have shared are that I've never really felt like I belonged anywhere. And that I used to be a devout Christian, but suddenly quit feeling God's presence, he was just not there anymore is how it felt. I learned about the dark night and have been stuck here for over a decade.
I struggle to sleep, I barely sleep. When I do, I never dream. I used to dream so vivid, I've interpreted people dreams and also had my own experiences with foresight, and lucid dreaming. I miss it. I feel like I can't awaken, something is preventing it. I'm struggling with finding hope. I have faced so many countless struggles.
I was meditating earlier... I've don't it before but this time I was listening to a guided meditation for awakening. Something happened. I started imagining a blue planet with a giant red moon, huge... it filled up a lot of the sky. I think our light was from something like a Auora borealis nebula. I can't figure out more. I also thought maybe I had webbed hands, but I dont know. The surface maybe had white stone or white and black stone or grey. Does this sound right or familiar to anyone else? I could use help
Actually I think i have testosterone and waiting to be seen, it may be that, depression, or something else. I've been listening to different vibrations
Thank you these sound helpful I'll check them out. i feel fragmented, so these will help get me started.
I suppose I deal with anxiety a bit, ruminating, worried people don't like me, but mostly my schedules messed up. It's kind of something I have to endure for now. My problems, aren't reoccurring but just one after another, sometimes many at ones. Barely can slow down.
I'm working to figure out things physical and mental
I'm not sure, ill definitely think about it.
All atrocious, i had a divorce with split custody. I works thord shift and have to take care of kids get them to school and back. I'm trying to do good for them... being their father kept me alive during the worst of things
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Thank you. That's encouraging. I'll keep trying.