I kind of stumbled across the sub. Glad that I did. Read the pinned post about asking if you're a starseed and related to it so heavily.

I question though, constantly. Is my need to service others stemming from feelings of unworthiness from childhood trauma? Are they just self fulfilling and therefore selfish? I am so happy to have opportunities to help others that I can't help but ask, am I then rooting for the suffering of others underneath my "good" intentions? Is the suffering what motivates me? How can that be good?

What if there were so suffering? Would I still have purpose? Would I still give myself value? This is the world I want to see, but if it comes to light, what would be my place in it?

These thoughts deeply bother me.

I'd love any insight from wiser ones than me on this.