First let me say there are things in my experience that I cannot make any sense of. Two parts particular but I will explain at the end. I went to a small festival/family campout that is held on a farm during the equinoxes and solstices every year. I was seeing friends I haven’t seen in many months from me being in NorCal. This is where my experience happens. I arrive and am greeted by many of my friends I have not seen in a while and am immediately puddled with incredible liquid from Oregon. Then go to walk around and look for my two best friends whom I haven’t seen yet. As I am walking around from campsite to campsite looking for my friends, I start to feel the come up of what I just took.

Sidenote: I am definitely a veteran psychonaut and can tell the difference between a hallucination and not. At least I thought/think so.

As I turned to head to the next campsite looking for my two other friends I turned and see the most brilliant light and what looks like a tear in time and space with light bursting through. (Closest thing I have seen to help describe are the “rifts” in Fortnite of all places.) As I stop dead in my tracks, I turn to the friend that was walking around with me and asked her “what is THAT?!?!” she then proceeds to tell me “don’t worry about it”. I then crossed my arms and refused to keep walking unless she explained because saying don’t worry about it when it is clear that she sees it and its there told me she knew what it was. So, I pressured again as I stand there in amazement at the most beautiful light I have ever seen. It is dusk btw. That’s when she says “follow me”. As we are walking, she has what was a red ball a little bigger than a softball in her right hand, she asks me what I think this place is. I have never thought about whether this is a simulation in 34 years until that moment when I looked at her and said “is this a simulation?” as she nods her head at me I notice she is moving her fingers on the red ball and as this is happening I hear the words “we are bringing him in now” and the sky started shimmering with octagon panels. As I was noticing this I had this overwhelming surge in my body like a part of me I didn’t even know existed had come to the forefront and was relinking (for lack of a better word I guess) with what I knew as “myself”. As I started to mentally/spiritually fully relink my higher self (again im assuming here based on the experience) my “body” started to hyperventilate and freak out. They said the words “he is going into shock”. The friends that were walking around with me originally while looking for my best friend put their hands on my chest and told me to breath. To stop trying to process with my brain and to just “feel it” that I cant comprehend using logic and to just feel. I then felt what I can only describe as the most intense feeling of love, so intense it paled any feeling I have ever felt in this current existence or re iteration of myself . This calmed me down and things started to clear up in my mind. As we are walking they froze the rain in mid fall and I walked through an individual I have known for years as they showed me they have full control over this place. I was presented with a choice to “go home” as I was told my job/mission was completed but could stay if I wanted to. My higher self chose to stay. . I then looked at them excited and remember asking “Do they Know?!” as in do they know I woke up? Broke out? Not sure who “they” would be either. During all of this I just wanted to find my best friend and tell him what I was experiencing in that moment. As I am walking with what I now think were beings or code using the “likeness” of my friends so my brain didn’t explode? We stop using our mouths to communicate and it becomes just looking at each other yet still having a full animated conversation. (This is where it gets REALLY strange and hard for me to come to terms with) As we are walking I saluted them as cadets and was amazed that they were able to fix the things I couldn’t when we created this place. Mind you (even though this “craziness” is going on and we are talking) I am still walking the field looking for my bestfriend in hopes of telling him what Im experiencing, I was hung up on it actually. So much so that they were pausing the rain in mid air and having me walk through people to explain it wasn’t real. I then remember coming to a group of people I know and some “beings” standing around them that they apparently weren’t aware of or couldn’t see. It was almost as if I were in two places/dimensions at once? I was having a conversation with the beings and asked what do we do now? This hasn’t happened before they said. (I can only assume they mean with me?) after we walk away from that group of people I turn around and there is no one in the field. Hundreds of tents, no people. We continue to walk as I haven’t found my best friend yet and as we are walking Im asking questions about this place and saying things like since you control everything here lets just I don’t know Make it day all of a sudden or something. They were like “noooo we cant do that abrupt of a change without some fallout” with a chuckle (to I guess the scenario?) I then end up face to face, nose to nose with one of my friends I am walking with as I recognize his eyes to be that of my son. But not my son here in this existence. I just knew it was my son. As we stared at each other and he showed me he has full control by yoyo-ing my “higher self” in and out of the forefront of my conciessness if that makes any sense. We both started to weep and I apologized to him and said the words “I will love you more everytime we do this son” referring to me being stuck here/ trapped, not sure. I then “came to” right at midnight sitting on a bench watching the band that was playing and right next to me was the friend I had been searching for this whole time. I looked at him and shot out of my seat freaking out about what had just happened. (around 5 to 6 hours had passed here) When I came too in that moment I realized that the other part or my “higher self” part of me (that I didn’t even know was a real thing or that I wasn’t all of me) was gone. Along with all the knowledge I had in the time I was walking around discussing this place and looking for my friend. Just an empty space in my mind. Like a book missing out of a full set or something. I could just remember the actual experience but not the part that what was downloaded into me when I accepted it as a simulation. The parts that in five years (as this was 2018) I cannot seem to come to terms with are when I saluted them as Cadets and marveled at how they fixed things I couldn’t when we made this place. I am not military here and the implications of those two things is still too much for me to wrap my head around. The one message I was left with embedded to my core was “Find the Others”. Over the past five years I have met many and told my story. Not a single person has taken me seriously. I was starting to think there were no “others” and I am just nuts. This is the first time I have put this on paper and There is much, much more to what I experienced over the next few years after 2018 that I am happy to get into and things even before this event as a young child, but this was the experience that changed everything for me. Im not sure if what I wrote will make any sense but I am happy to answer any questions about the experience. Since then though Ive just been searching for the “Others” whoever they are in hopes of some answers.s ready to try to take it to the next level and legit to help as many people as I could. My parents didn’t feel the same about cannabis (devils lettuce to them) and went to court to have me bring my daughter (12 yo) back to hand over to her mother who left when my daughter was 2 and became addicted to meth so they could keep my daughter closer. (another story another day) After driving from NorCal across the country I arrive and have to hand over my daughter at court until Im able to get a lawyer. I leave court with my heart shattered and emotionally destroyed (as her and my son are my heart and soul) and drive 4 hours to a small festival/family campout that is held on a farm during the equinoxes and solstices every year. I was picking up someone to take back with me to help tend the crops and seeing friends I haven’t seen in many months from me being in NorCal. This is where my experience happens. I arrive and am greeted by many of my friends I have not seen in awhile, all of which know what just happened at court and how destroyed and betrayed I feel etc. and am immediately puddled with incredible liquid from Oregon. Then given some X and go to walk around and look for my two best friends whom I haven’t seen yet. As I am walking around from campsite to campsite looking for my friends I start to feel the comeup of what I just took. Sidenote: I am definitely a veteran psychonaut and can tell the difference between a hallucination an not. At least I thought/think so. As I turned to head to the next campsite looking for my two other friends I turn and see the most brilliant light and what looks like a tear in time and space with light bursting through. (closest thing I have seen to help describe are the “rifts” in Fortnite of all places.) As I stop dead in my tracks I turn to the friend that was walking around with me and asked her “what is THAT?!?!” she then proceeds to tell me “don’t worry about it”. I then crossed my arms and refused to keep walking unless she explained because saying don’t worry about it when it is clear that she sees it and its there told me she knew what it was. So I pressured again as I stand there in amazement at the most beautiful light I have ever seen. It is dusk btw. That’s when she says “follow me”. As we are walking, she has what was a red ball a little bigger than a softball in her right hand, she asks me what I think this place is. I have never thought about whether this is a simulation in 34 years until that moment when I looked at her and said “is this a simulation?” as she nods her head at me I notice she is moving her fingers on the red ball and as this is happening I hear the words “we are bringing him in now” and the sky started shimmering with octagon panels. As I was noticing this I had this overwhelming surge in my body like a part of me I didn’t even know existed had come to the forefront and was relinking (for lack of a better word I guess) with what I knew as “myself”. As I started to mentally/spiritually fully relink my higher self (again im assuming here based on the experience) my “body” started to hyperventilate and freak out. They said the words “he is going into shock”. The friends that were walking around with me originally while looking for my best friend put their hands on my chest and told me to breath. To stop trying to process with my brain and to just “feel it” that I cant comprehend using logic and to just feel. I then felt what I can only describe as the most intense feeling of love, so intense it paled any feeling I have ever felt in this current existence or re iteration of myself . This calmed me down and things started to clear up in my mind. As we are walking they froze the rain in mid fall and I walked through an individual I have known for years as they showed me they have full control over this place. I was presented with a choice to “go home” as I was told my job/mission was completed but could stay if I wanted to. My higher self chose to stay. . I then looked at them excited and remember asking “Do they Know?!” as in do they know I woke up? Broke out? Not sure who “they” would be either. During all of this I just wanted to find my best friend and tell him what I was experiencing in that moment. As I am walking with what I now think were beings or code using the “likeness” of my friends so my brain didn’t explode? We stop using our mouths to communicate and it becomes just looking at each other yet still having a full animated conversation. (This is where it gets REALLY strange and hard for me to come to terms with) As we are walking I saluted them as cadets and was amazed that they were able to fix the things I couldn’t when we created this place. Mind you (even though this “craziness” is going on and we are talking) I am still walking the field looking for my bestfriend in hopes of telling him what Im experiencing, I was hung up on it actually. So much so that they were pausing the rain in mid air and having me walk through people to explain it wasn’t real. I then remember coming to a group of people I know and some “beings” standing around them that they apparently weren’t aware of or couldn’t see. It was almost as if I were in two places/dimensions at once? I was having a conversation with the beings and asked what do we do now? This hasn’t happened before they said. (I can only assume they mean with me?) after we walk away from that group of people I turn around and there is no one in the field. Hundreds of tents, no people. We continue to walk as I haven’t found my best friend yet and as we are walking Im asking questions about this place and saying things like since you control everything here lets just I don’t know Make it day all of a sudden or something. They were like “noooo we cant do that abrupt of a change without some fallout” with a chuckle (to I guess the scenario?) I then end up face to face, nose to nose with one of my friends I am walking with as I recognize his eyes to be that of my son. But not my son here in this existence. I just knew it was my son. As we stared at each other and he showed me he has full control by yoyo-ing my “higher self” in and out of the forefront of my conciessness if that makes any sense. We both started to weep and I apologized to him and said the words “I will love you more everytime we do this son” referring to me being stuck here/ trapped, not sure. I then “came to” right at midnight sitting on a bench watching the band that was playing and right next to me was the friend I had been searching for this whole time. I looked at him and shot out of my seat freaking out about what had just happened. (around 5 to 6 hours had passed here) When I came too in that moment I realized that the other part or my “higher self” part of me (that I didn’t even know was a real thing or that I wasn’t all of me) was gone. Along with all the knowledge I had in the time I was walking around discussing this place and looking for my friend. Just an empty space in my mind. Like a book missing out of a full set or something. I could just remember the actual experience but not the part that what was downloaded into me when I accepted it as a simulation. The parts that in five years (as this was 2018) I cannot seem to come to terms with are when I saluted them as Cadets and marveled at how they fixed things I couldn’t when we made this place. I am not military here and the implications of those two things is still too much for me to wrap my head around. The one message I was left with embedded to my core was “Find the Others”. Over the past five years I have met many and told my story. Not a single person has taken me seriously. I was starting to think there were no “others” and I am just nuts. This is the first time I have put this on paper and There is much, much more to what I experienced over the next few years after 2018 that I am happy to get into and things even before this event as a young child, but this was the experience that changed everything for me. Im not sure if what I wrote will make any sense but I am happy to answer any questions about the experience. Since then though Ive just been searching for the “Others” whoever they are in hopes of some answers.