For 35 years, I am trapped here (Pakistan). Went through extensive abuse, torment, pain, and suffering throughout my whole life ever since I was a child, especially by my own family and relatives. Most of them are narcissists and psychopaths, especially father and mother who are the source of most of abuse and torment which got worse for the last 7 years. I am on autism spectrum and have a few other mental disabilities. I have cPTSD also. I can't work, so dependent on my toxic family for financial support.

Also, family is pushing religion Islam on me for a long while. I don't worship anyone. I am an apostate and renounced Islam years ago. On top of all that, some beings (they are called archons or interdimentional parasites) are targeting me with all kind of attacks; psychic, mental, throwing toxic energies/frequencies, black magic, voodoo stuff, attaching astral parasites to me, etc for some years at least and leeching my life force. That situation has gotten very worse now. My physical and mental health is worse. I am drained and gotten very weak. I am broken. My chakras are shattred. Probably my soul is broken also. Went through severe burnout in the last few years also. I learned a while ago that probably some cult is after me and my own father is part of that cult. He was involved in black magic stuff when I was little.

I have no one here. No support system. Neither I can support myself due to my issues. I feel trapped. What do I do? Where do I go? I am getting very broken and losing myself and hope also. How much hatred those vile creatures have that is not satisfying? What do they want? My destruction?

Is there any help and support for me? Are there any beings or humans that really care about me and love me? I really want to leave this hellhole country and shift to some better one where I have human rights and support. But I would need some friend or partner which I have none. It seems everytime I try to reach for support or friendship or relationship, the matrix start putting roadblocks in my way.

Please! I need help and support. I am human first (if we forget about starseed for a bit). Not some piece of metal to be hammered and burned and melted. Are there any other starseeds that can help me? I would be very grateful.

Lastly, thank you to u/ShayRay331 for doing my galactic astrological chart for free.