I just joined this sub recently but I have been reading about starseeds for many years now, and having this feeling that I could be an indigo child myself. But I was never entirely sure

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I have always known myself to be deeply connected to the emotions of people around me and myself. Really expressive and in tune with arts and music, and my friends and family attest to that.

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Also diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety since I was 12, so I never really figured out my place in this world despite what I can do and feel. I had this assumption that I got this gifts due to childhood trauma, and having such profound empathy ever since I saw and stopped my dad from killing himself. For years I kinda thought that specific event defined who, what I am, what I'm good at and what I wanna do. But since it was a heavy and traumatic memory, I felt like it got buried deep within my subconconcious and never thought about how it affected my life throughout the years.

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Months ago, after joining a meditation retreat I started to dig deep within my thoughts and remembered that specific event in my childhood. I finally remembered it vividly and began to realize how much that occurrence in my life impacted my personality, my thoughts, the way I process my emotions and perhaps my mental condition too. I guess I figured out the root cause of most of the past and present suffering I've had and I never felt so liberated.

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To be honest, I don't really know why I shared this story here and why this sub. Perhaps it's the universe telling me something. Or I just didn't have anything better to do at this moment as I type this.