Once the day is over and I’m left with nothing to do, my mind always resorts to all my favorite topics of spirituality, conspiracy theories etc., I just have all these creative ideas and energy for them, but once it’s day time and I obviously have all day to do whatever I want, I seem to not have that fiery passion. I still have the same thoughts that I do at night, I just don’t have that same energy to act on it.

My first thought is that this is pretty common in general, outside of spirituality. It’s common that people have all these ideas before bed, how they’re going to wake up early, workout, have a nice healthy breakfast and get work done by noon etc., but then they finally wake up and have zero energy for any of that.

My second thought is that I’m used to having to contribute the day time to the things that our modern systems have implemented in us, like working, watching tv/tiktok etc, and once that is completed, I’m left with my real free time at night, almost as if I was a child who had to finish my plate full of vegetables if I wanted to get dessert after.

I think this ultimately has just turned into a habit where the daytime is designated for the things I have to do, vs the nighttime where there’s no expectations and the possibilities are endless. But I want to try to neutralize this so I’m equally productive during the day (and to try to fix my sleeping schedule too😅)