Hello

I am 21 female I’ve been needing advice on this particular friendship I developed in my undergrad years . I am currently a senior . I’ve been having this friend that I met freshman year of college 22F. We hit it off really well when we first meet . We are from the same city you know kind of grew up with the same background. However , I started questioning if she was truly my friend sophomore year or if she was meant to be a lifelong friend outside of college. So over the past 3 years I’ve noticed like fake behavior within her. Or behavior that kind of hurt me anyways due to me having high expectations for people I call “friends”

Last year a snow storm came through around February in the town our college is located . Her and her boyfriend were out of groceries and didn’t have a vehicle . So she called me and asked if I would take her to the store , I didn’t hesitate and put my vehicle at risk knowing the roads were full of snow (I have a tiny vehicle ) . Anywho, I didn’t want them to be starving while a snow storm was going on and people water were being cut off for hours at a time. So I got up and took her and bf to the store that was about 2miles away . I didn’t ask her for gas even though she told me she would give me gas . .. I never asked and I never do .
Fast forward in may I had got into a wreck in our hometown. (During summer ) My car would have been in the shop for a month and I needed a ride back to the town that our college is located in where my apartment was . Which is two hours away from our hometown … this friend (I’m going to name her (brandy)) she had recently just got her car . So I text brandy to see if she was in our hometown and going back to the college town anytime soon . .. I really needed a ride because at this point my entire life is in the college town (apt job ) I was only back home to visit for the weekend . - I didn’t want to ask my Greatgrandmother to take me back because she cannot drive on highway roads especially not for 2housr constantly . So I was completely assed out with my vehicle being in the shop. Long story short brandy was actually in our hometown at the same time and stated that she would be going back to college town in 2days so.. I told her my situation that I had a wreck my vehicle was in the shop etc. Do you mind me riding back with you to the CT .. she was hesitant then was like yeahh.. but then she asked me could I find a ride to her house the day it was time for us to leave . I was like no .. because I really did not have anyone . Besides she have to pass up my home to get to the freeway to get back to our college anyways. How I know this ? Is because we met freshman year and I would always give her rides back home from college to hometown .. cook meals for us sometimes atleast 2-3x out of the semester just for entertainment. Yk She ended up picking me up from my Grammies the next day .. not to the day we was supposed to leave. I notice how her energy was really weird.. she didn’t get out the car greet me or help me . Her boyfriend got out and helped me put my bags in and spoke . I don’t know if I was being sensitive but I was in complete awe of how I was being treated . & No !! I don’t expect for people to cater to me or be treated like royalty. But I was really in a bad space at that period do to I had just had a wreck not knowing when my vehicle would be out the shop just lot of stressful shit going on at the time (college ..job) and just completely in a hopeless mind state . Oh and Remind you she has been to great grandmother house at least 3x before and meet her . She charged me 20$ In gas which is responsible but I’m thinking Ive never charge you for anything .. It’s 2 of y’all you have a bf both of them with jobs .. plus y’all were coming this way anyways back to town . Also I’m out here all alone a college student making ends meet .. money is all wrapped up in getting my car out the shop . Etc. paying for summer classes . She knew what I was facing

Also not to mention my aunt use to come pick us up from college freshman year .. when neither of us had vehicles . Free of charge feed us etc..

So around end of may it was like Memorial Day or some holiday . At the time I had roommates but they were all gone back home for the summer . So it literally had just been me out here all by myself . So I was kind of bored/depressed in my head and just wanted to get out for a breather to pick my spirit up. I hit her like hey wyd today do you have plans.. you want to hang ..

a party was going on across street from my house she was like no she was going to bbq for the day . So I’m like okay I was just bored kinda stuck in the house and wanted to get out . She never really asked me to come over or offered a plate anything .. so I just didn’t even ask could I come over even though I kinda wanted to … I thought she would have just openly invited me due to how good of friends I thought we were. - Anywho, that day I just stayed in the house … bawling my eyes thinking of how I didn’t have anyone in my corner while I was at my lowest not just her even so called family . Literally ready to give up college and drop the ball. Btw our school is in a “small little country town. “So just imagine that. oh yeah she came and took me to the store cus I need food like 2days later and charged me 10$ for gas when the store I needed to go to was literally 1mile away from both our apartment complexes . After that I just kind of stop texting her .. cause I can’t believe she charging me for shit knowing all the shit im going thru financially we in school she use to be the friend asking me to borrow money and freshman year .

Fast forward .. to September I got my car back moved to a different location . Im at the grocery store I’m on the aisle looking down . I hear a couple but I never looked up to see ..