Hello (21F) I have been in deep thought for awhile about my sex life and how I haven’t really experienced anything amazing like most people have yet at young age with their bf/gf. I would consider myself as a demisexual . So, I really cannot wait to get married and have my own husband so I can slut him tf out! I want to do everything to him !! Is that bad ? I’ve been celibate close to a year now . Like I’ve literally been craving some healing / powerful transcending sex.. but I just cannot allow another dude in me that doesn’t love me and we have connection. Shit is pointless to me now having casual sexual with no meaning especially while I’m at a vulnerable stage in my life I don’t think I could just have casual sex with someone and go on about my day . Use to but now I can’t ! Don’t get me wrong I have had my share of that … and now I just regret it and feel like those guys know apart of me I don’t want them to know and should have kept sacred . But no I wish I really would have saved myself for married . Is it bad that I think this way ? What is the problem