I often questions wether I should let others see that im joyful,kind, funny, energetic and passionate. Iv been so used to seeing others give off shit energy that I often question if I should share my good energy or not. Whenever I try to share my good energy there are people always try to put it down and question why Im saying or doing things positive and good. The world is so full of shit people and being thag positive spark in public is draining and idk if I can keep it up tbh. There are so many people that mask and cant be themselves due to not wanting to "stand out". I used to mask 24/7. Im slowly showing my true version and my inner child doesn't like it. I feel negative energies and positive energies easily. Im super empathetic, I care about other alot. But the ego side of me doesn't want to help others and just be a selfish prick cuzz thats how you survive in this messed up world we call earth. If you dont see people, your judged. If your around people, your judged. If you act like yourself, your judged If you dont act like yourself, your judged. There is literally no balance. Just black and white thinking, cuzz that is how humanity has always been. I dont been to be a downer but I often question wether being a good person is worth it in the end if Im just gonna get shit on for being a good person.