I have been doing inner work over the past few months through meditation, reading, and therapy that has brought out shadow energies and revealed unhelpful thought patterns. I feel like I am making progress gradually integrating, naming and accepting emotions and thoughts as they arise. The next step, I think, is building up a reservoir of self-love, where all this negativity currently lives.

But in the last few weeks I feel as if the false self/pain body/ego is fighting back.

Out of seemingly nowhere, the greatest hits of my painful memories, fears, and anxieties have resurfaced and seem to stalk me in my daily life. Often I feel like an ambient sense of anxiety and dread scans through my insecurities for something to latch onto in that moment. This is disappointing because, through plant medicine and previous inner work, I thought I had already settled these scores, so to speak.

I will admit that I've suffered from symptoms ADHD, GAD and possibly OCD, and have wondered about a neurological or biological source for this latest episode. But reaching to medication feels like going backwards. I have a weekly psychotherapist.

Does this align with others experiences as they raise their vibrations? Any advice for navigating?