So yesterday it was d day first time bought ma own bag of pep. A line. 45 min a line 45min a line , some extra ghb with another line. And so on. At the end of the day and the end of the pep I had a genius' plan : Do the rest (0.15gram) all at once... GG was that stupid af. 6 hours of pure hell. At first I really really really didn't want to ring 112, but after 6 hours , obligated to lay down and try to relax relax rate was 110 lol) I did GHB to suppress anxiety bc these 2 brought it really really high sometimes. When I stoot up I literally thought this is it : getting wavy ,fastest heartreate I Everly felt ( 200 minimum) vision blurry sweating. Magere Hein heeft me gelukkig net niet geraakt.

A new day , new drugs but this time that first line 80mg did nothing, 100 nothing and I needed 120mg to felt the euphoria. No worries just had 300 mg today and took baclofen now with last dose.

Guess that upper en downers is not always that bad , in hospital they also gave lorazepam and still I had light anxiety for 2 hours , it really took me. This is not the first odd but my first upper od, Jezus it's Nast hell and downers heaven...

Fight now whalht anxietl wlhipe layn down hb is 70 had some baclofen but blood pressure is scary Dont know