I’m not sure if I’m still in the realm of solipsism because I’ve been having a mental break and I don’t even know if I exist? It’s hard to explain but I feel like everything that’s happening has already happened and keeps happening and it’s an endless cycle that I created for no reason. I’m seeing everything at once all the time, and there’s no end. Just meaningless existence and jarring self-awareness. Do I exist? Why did I do this? Why would I put myself under this spell only to wake from it and scare the shit out of myself? Why anything? I feel out of my mind and out of my body, and I don’t even know if I want to die because what is that?! I’m so scared. Please help