I can’t seem to socialize with anybody properly. I have plenty of friends, but put me with them in a group setting, and all of a sudden, I’m silent. I can’t make new friends either because sitting down at a table, approaching a person, or being at large get-togethers just make me feel isolated. I spend time thinking about how much I don’t belong somewhere instead of doing anything about it, but by time I begin to self-deprecate, depression already sets in and it becomes near impossible to enjoy myself. My friends have avenues of getting to know people through school. They’ve found cliques they mesh well with. But I deny myself from chasing my dreams because I’m too fixated on what my friends are doing. I feel like I’m naturally antisocial, or autistic. My ADHD or narcolepsy might inhibit me from carrying conversations. But I always find myself wanting to be social and have a life and connect with people on level that has depth. Why am I still struggling with this after all this time? What could I be doing better? How do I prevent myself from falling into the same trap in my mind?