Growing up, my parents did not allow me have friends in my neighborhood because they felt they’ll be of negative influence. My only friends I had were at school. I couldn’t go out with those friends from school or visit them for same reasons. Neither was I allowed to have a phone. I will sneak out during church service just to visit a friend or secretly purchase a phone to keep in touch with my friends. I became friends with the wrong people, or struggled to maintain the few good friendships. In university, I had a boyfriend from year 1 to my 5th year. He became my only friend. I will bail out on the female friends I made from my class to be with him, spend part of my vacation with him, etc. Then we broke up after I had an abortion for him. It was very traumatic and I couldn’t share it with anyone. I was depressed for so long, became out of touch with the world and lost myself. Today I’m almost 26, going through so much yet I can’t share it with anyone. I have had so many fall outs with friends and now I don’t know how to reach out or make new friends. I know I need help but I don’t know where/whom to turn for help.