met a girl on election night, went back to her place, talked for 4 hours, I emotionally vomit. Didn’t kiss didn’t get her number but got her IG. I could tell this was unusually easy to get to her bed but I couldn’t stop over thinking and when I could see that she never gave eye contact that it just threw me off. I’ve never had a conversation like this before. I’d imagine this is how I might used to have talked back as a teen but this was weird to see in an attractive woman. We met again the following Sunday and it was almost a repeat scenario but I ended the night trying to ask her out but was thrown off by her statement that she wasn’t looking for a serious relationship.

I know now more than likely her lack of eye contact was almost a sign she might have wanted a one night stand. I think ive sensed her pulling back in conversation as she hasn’t wanted to meet up and just DMs that I initiate since the 2nd time we talked. I’m not asking for dating advice specifically. I was just curious if people on Reddit were good with understanding body language or maybe why she wouldn’t look me on the eyes, a stranger. She doesn’t exactly have low self esteem, she seems to know her worth and is book smart.

Anyways thanks for taking the time to read and possibly responding to this post in advance. I’m pretty sure I’m destroying this new relationship as I think she’s attaching regret to our interactions but I’m not looking for a friend that can’t look me in the eyes when I’m talking to them for 4 hours. Yes, I would have considered just getting laid or pursing a fwb situation but don’t have luck successfully getting into a fwb situation. I have my issues I’m sorting out in my habits and behaviors because I know I’m at fault too but I’d like clarity. I think about it if I could have gotten laid but under the circumstances she was an art nerd and so was I, she didn’t know I was and when she found out I was resisting on telling her the crack in the dam holding my art & emotions poured—I don’t think I could have gone through with sex with her after getting emo about my own art. FYI, I was going to quit making art before I met her. I have never put her on a pedestal, only have I complimented her art. Not her looks, not her finances, job or anything really outside of art.

I will say I haven’t given up art, but I’ve postponed deciding it. Yes I’m a sensitive artist.

TLDR: met a girl on election night, went back to her place, talked for 4 hours, I emotionally vomit. She hardly gave me eye contact in any of our interactions. What would this mean? Yes, I know I could have gotten laid. It’s usually my goto move to friend zone any girl who finds out about my art / I don’t like girls getting it twisted about the art I make just because I call it ‘art on attraction’. What does it mean when you get alone time with a girl and she hardly gives eye contact?