I lately think this a lot. Something is off about us guys, I'm talking about loners, we are lacking something, I don't know what it is but I feel like it will last till death.

It is a deep hole in your soul, it's emotional, it is like a trauma from childhood, actually it is and you are not able to get rid of it.

Improving your skills is just a therapy. It's not a cure.

Also we are all left behind. We are like a child who trying to hang out with teens today, and we will be teen who tries to hang out with adults tomorrow. Because everyone improving their social skills, and extroverts even have a boost due to their very social lives. But we? We have a chance when we get into a new place like high school, college, a new work, after all we are being pushed out of that social circle again.

Most of the time, at the beginning it is great, we feel like we have a lot of friends but the reason they care is they don't know us properly. They don't really know how much skills we lack.

it hurts. Because this is written in my DNA. I didn't choose this life. And there isn't an afterlife. Why? Why we are the ones who have to struggle?

Having no purpose is killing me.