I've totally overcome shyness. I just walk and talk to people. But something is wrong. I can feel it.

I can't attract them. I've met ton of people. They like me a little at the beginning, then it becomes boring. Sometimes, in worse cases, they start to ignore, start to treat me like a jerk. I am not playing it cool, maybe that's the reason, I don't know. You do.

I try to listen people and remember about them. But man, they're too much. Just ~10 in dorm and hundreds in college. I forget. Nowadays I know so many people, but I've  forgotten about their names. Dozens of people, nameless, living in my head. 

I  realized that I am starting to talk bullshit after first couple of conversations. That classic "there is nothing in my mind" problem. These are the times that  I say something not so related to the topic, or something dumb. I trying not to be quite.

 Also I can't stand leader. I always strike. And it becomes a war. Then I lose. Because I was the fucking quite one, and the leader was the social one from childhood. He has xp. I lack XP.

  Can practice improve me anymore?  I need your advice. Your.