This happened the other day, a girl asked me out to go clubbing and during prees before I had even drunk I went really quiet, at the end of it I went home before even going out to the club.

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Later on the girl I liked told me she was gay, still not sure if it was because she wanted to avoid me or if she was genuinely gay.

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I've also noticed I don't have many social expressions especially when I'm feeling empty. I had this at uni too, later on I was diagnosed with Depression and panic attack disorder. I'm now on anti-depressants, I have Diazapam for during the panic attacks, but I don't use it very often.

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I'm looking for a girl I like who's cute and intelligent, I just don't know where or where to meet them.

I also don't have many friends, I had a lot at university but back home, I don't have very many close. I like going clubbing but I feel it would be v. weird if i went alone.

I don't know how to act around girls or get to an intimate place. I'm really struggling here, has anyone got any advice?

Although people tell me I look confident on the surface I'm constantly anxious around nearly everyone I meet.

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I've attached some pictures, do I need to change my appearance, what's the key, help me out here