hey guys so i am currently 18 and in high school. I have been to 4 different high schools schools and i have not managed to keep at least one friend from each school. I have ended up retaking my final year of high school as i literally couldn’t make any friends at my old school that i joined as an external student.

Now i am at my 4th high school/college and everyone joined externally so no one really knew eachother before hand but i am in my 2nd year of it ( will be going uni this yr) and whilst i do have a friendship group. I am the only person in the group who doesn’t have other friends at college outside of the group. Whenever we hang out with other people i am often ignored however i never know what to say and constantly struggle to make conversation it is just incredibly awkward. Even with this girl i have known for 2 years we went on a walk and it was quite awkward i literally didn’t know what to say and couldn’t make convo. I also feel like they don’t really include me tho?

Additionally i have a job aside from college that i have worked for 2 years. I literally struggle to even talk to my manager. I have like one acquaintance there but cannot for the life of me make conversations with any of my other colleagues it also feels really awkward whenever i try to join in on a group conversation and when all the colleagues get together no one really comes and speaks to me.

I also used to have another retail job and a girl i started at the same time as managed to get really close to the other employees but i couldn’t and often just had really short convos with them so i just left bc it felt awkward. This was the same at another retail job i had before this.

It baffles me because i have done so much. Been to 4 different schools, Had 3 different jobs, I was apart of a sports team for 10 years, I was a police cadet for 6 months and i have not managed to keep at least 1 friend from all those things. I really just want people who i am close to and a best friend.

From all these interactions i have come to the conclusion that it must be something i am doing wrong, i feel like am i quite introverted but try to be as extroverted as i can. it sucks seeing all my college friends bragging about going on girls holidays and stuff knowing i don’t have a close group of girls myself. I will literally take any advice as i desperately need more friends.

I am going to 4 different concerts by myself this year as i literally have no one to go with lol