Recently, I've been excluded from an online roleplaying server cause a certain demographic of people hate my personality.

• I'm cold.
• Dismissive.
• Hostile & Insensitive.

Of course, I have the usual asshole defense: "I'm honest, and I just don't give a shit about people's feelings. I say it how it is." And obviously sensitive people can't stand me.

But I've always been... A loner. I'm 21 years old now and hardly have a circle of friends, much less reliable/trusted ones. Especially after I literally spent the entirety of yesterday getting pulled apart by them for being a "narcissist". (They're still my friends, but they're way of being friends is setting me "straight" apparently.)

One thing I've always struggled with socializing is that it doesn't matter how cool or interesting you are... All that matters is how you make the other person feel. But I've never been bothered to CARE how other people feel?? I have low empathy, and every time I try to have this character arc of social growth. My mind is repulsed at the thought of pretending to be interested in someone's day or their hobbies.

Am I doomed to be alone?

Edit: After listening to some of you, I think I might throw in the towel. This may just be my initial reaction of being resistant to change. But... I don't love the idea of having to force myself to change for other people. Maybe I'm too selfish to have friends.