The United States is single handedly radicalizing me and now I'm scared. I feel like I'm just being faced with reality and it's really just been confirming what I've known to be true all along. Today I spent most of my morning researching basic information about "fascist" and a fascist gov. to learn more and started falling down a rabbit hole. Now my brain has made all the connections and I am so uncomfortable. The war on Gaza alone has pushed me into pursuing a career as a paramedic, so I can learn medical aid and be prepared in case "something" happens. I am also trying to learn how to garden / plant, familiarizing myself with botany for edible/ pharmaceutical plants, sustainable farming and what that looks like, and just all over general survival/camping skills (eventually slowly building out my bug out book bag). Also what are WE going to do? Where do we go from here? When will things get better? Voting just doesn't feel like it's enough anymore. We already exist in a dystopia. The only thing we still have slight control over is our money and consumerism. It's the only thing these ( politicians/ 1%) care about. I just feel the only way to move mountains is to weaponize money and spending against them. Weaponize togetherness and community to get back at them. Utilize the very things they took from us to suffocate them out. We don't have a "Katniss" in this world because she is supposed to represent the humanity inside all of us. I hope this is reciprocated, and I am not alone. Lots of love to everyone 💕.

(1.13.24. Just letting yall know I'm reading all the comments below, and im so thankful to have my feelings validated and recieve some support. It can be hard when the silence irl has been so deafening. I am writing down all these information recomendations and will definitely be following up on all of them. The more educated I can become the better 💞😭 this post has really calmed me down... I appreciate every one of you.)