this shits ruining my life. whenever I somehow make friends with someone, we end up falling out after a few weeks because I'm too afraid to talk to them (mostly because I always end up thinking that they only talk to me because they feel bad for me)

I've overheard people saying that I'm a loner and that I want to be left alone, even though I want to talk to people, but I'm just too nervous to start conversations

I tried googling how to overcome it but almost all of the results were stuff that I've already been doing (and most of those things are probably making it worse)

I can't get therapy because my dad thinks that all therapists are evil or some shit. help