All I do is work, sleep, eat and spend my free time watching series & movies or scroll down Instagram for hours. I want to work on my social anxiety, improve confidence and self-esteem. I want to workout everyday to have a better body. But I don't have the motivation to do anything. I got no friends. My life is so lonely and depressing. I know how that I can change it, I do believe that if I put my mind into it I can transform myself.

Then why the fuck am I not doing it? I have tried guys, really. Often I have these epiphanies and next day I would be pumped and clean my room, take a shower and do my workout. But the very next day I find some excuse to skip and then I just return back to my normal routine.

10 years later I don't want to look back at this time and feel like "my life would not be miserable if I had done something"

I honestly don't know why I'm posting this. I don't what I'm looking for. Maybe I just needed get all of this off my chest.