I’ve got no friends since the last 2 years, I used to have lots till me ex drove them away. I lost my life partner. I barely leave the house because of my crippling depression. I’m a 32yo male. I used to be so happy go lucky, I used to recognise I was attractive, I used to be brave, I used to be confident. Losing my ex basically broke me.

I’ve had a year full of hell and loss. Tonight I thought I’d go see an old friend play a gig tonight. I used to like her and want to ask her out, I thought tonight would be a nice surprise.

I left it too late, the gig is sold out. I feel so incompetent. I fucked up something once again.

I wish I could just be with someone who understands me, and we can sit in and chill. One day maybe..