M20, im a very open minded and peaceful person. I had a conflict today though in one of my college classes that brought up liberal viewpoints. Im from a pretty conservative community (rural southern ohio) and i could imagine my family disagreeing greatly with what was said but good point were made. Im not goint to mention what the topic was cause that isnt relavent but i realize a lot of issues are very complex and its easy to find support for either side of most issues and i hate that. I wish things were simple.

I honestly dont think i have any real political views of my own. I thought for a while i was a coward, hiding my opinions but honestly im worse, im such a coward i dont even have opinions to hide. On the outside i present as liberal at school and conservative at home but i really dont have any true views on the inside. I dont think im confident in myself to form views and opinions on important things, have them make sense, and be able to confidently defend them.

I hate even thinking about this cause its such a damned if i do damned if i dont situation. If i remotely side with on end of the political spectrum on something people of the other side will HATE me (like for real politics are so devisive, either we are good company or your the antichrist, absoluetly no in between). On the other hand if i stay neutral im complaciant, evil and selfish for not "getting involved" according to BOTH sides.

Idk what to think about it but i loath politics so much for how anxious they make me feel and i want to pretend they dont exist.