I know that I'm young....but I've been struggling with alcoholism and other addictions since I was 15. I've been addicted to Xanax and LSD in the past. I'm currently 5 days sober from drinking and easing off of nicotine. Honestly I find it hard to form thoughts, making this very difficult to type out..... it's beyond necessary, though. I can't think straight anymore, I can't rationalize when I'm drinking, I become some sort of monster and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of not recognizing myself in the mirror. I'm sick of hurting people that I love more than anything on this Earth. I'm sick of pretending it's okay. I know I have a long journey ahead of me and it's not going to be easy. But knowing that there are people out there that are in the same boat...it will make sailing a lot easier. Thank you, everyone, for your bravery to share. You've all made it possible for me to be comfortable enough to share as well. I hope that together we can find the peace we're looking for