Some thoughts on being 6 months sober. Things that I have noticed about my 50 year old self.

1. Quitting drinking has had zero impact on my weight. In fact I’ve gained 15 lbs.

2. Quitting drinking hasn’t really helped any of my mental difficulties nor clarity in life. If anything it’s increased them.

3. Quitting drinking made most of my anxiety and depression increase. Because sobriety makes things and people 10 times more annoying.

4. Socially it has kept me inside and that a solid positive. As I’ve become sober I’ve found I have a super hard time tolerating ppl and don’t like most of them.

Over all I don’t feel better. This is super frustrating. I feel like my liver is more healthy but nothing else is.

I’m sick of all the hoorah bullshit and blah blah blah. I’m not drinking and don’t want to drink but fuck. I though a lot more would be different.

I’m patiently waiting on mental health counseling. Because that what I need along with this. I’m getting sick of waiting. I’m tired, I don’t feel like my wife gets what I’m going through. I feel burdensome and exhausted.

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