Girls I dated would always just move on to bigger things. I always heard I was great, nice, the only one that ever made them cum without clitoral stimulation, etc. Some would leave me but want to be friends or to sleep with people but be open to occasionally sleeping with me. Some would come back months, a year, even years later interested in reconnecting. I never understood.

I’m married to a slut. I didn’t know it and I don’t really care now that I do but she’s finally admitted that even though she cums the best with me - I’m the only one out of A LOT of guys that has made her cum just from intercourse - I’m not enough because of my size.

Now the tricky position of wanting her to be satisfied and me to be satisfied without either one of us being hurt. It’s impossible. I’m a giver by nature. She’s a slut by nature. So here we are with my wife having random quickies with big dicks, wanting me in a cock sleeve, and “she would be sad if we never had sex because she cums the best with me and loves my cum,” but my natural cock in her pussy is not a priority.

How the hell am I supposed to be happy when I’m not enough? We’ve decided we want to find a way forward and stay together. I’m not worried she’ll form an emotional connection with anyone. I don’t even really care if she quickly fucks other guys for fun. If I could fuck hot girls whenever I wanted, I’d love it I’m sure. It’s just this feeling of inadequacy. Feeing that there will be resentment if I keep her from everything she needs to be satisfied.

I’ve learned she has a lot of past sexual trauma. A lot of history. An insanely crazy past. It’s disturbing to say the least but she loved aspects of it and is at least somewhat of a product of it.

I’m venting but also hoping maybe someone will say something helpful.