Back In college my gf and I were part of the same big friend group. About 12 of us. We all did even together and even in smaller groups but no one ever got FOMO. My gf wasn’t the biggest fan of one of the girls but they got along for the most part. One night at a house party the whole group was there and the girl my gf didn’t like (Alana) had walked in on my finishing up in the bathroom and apologized and asked how things with my gf were going. We talked for a few min outside the bathroom and before I left to go grab another drink Alana grabbed my dick and said “just once..”. And I folded instantly. The rest is history. We would sneak around a fuck for 3 years and sext on Snapchat all the time. After we all graduated Alana moved away as did I and it just kinda died out. It was the best time of my life and I’m hoping to find another Alana soon as I get closer and closer to my wedding. I know it’s fucked up but ever since Alana I have craved cheating. The rush, the risk, the energy it’s just too hot not to chase