(NSFW) Myself, M33, and my F44 coworker have been hooking up since my bday at the beginning of November. The sex is deliciously passionate, and the aroma of the pheromones is just as intoxicating as the recreational mind altering substances that we have been (Responsibly&Safely) using. All-in-all she has the sexual qualities and competent capabilities to satisfy my body's physical desires (She also possesses a desirable personality and intellect, and they worth the mention to her credit.) However, my topic here is focusing on understanding the sexual drive that can be insatiably destructive.

Meaning, my mind, body, and soul can rest easily the rest of my life with a loyal woman's warm mouth servicing my body (primarily to her own eager enjoyment), yet the fleeting random desires to be deviant via online/digital means by mostly messaging random people. In those moments it is euphoric yet the instant gratification "reward" of attention is often minimal.

I generally only have sex with one partner during the duration of a given dating, talking, or hookup period. My reasonings for being "monogamous" are as follows, in a rough order of importance...

A)Consideration of my current partner's emotional and mental security throughout the situationship's time-frame. Meaning, I consciously want to ensure that my current partner (even a random one night stand) doesn't feel self conscious, unattractive, or otherwise unwanted. Which I can fail to provide proper attention when i hyper-focus on studying a subject or space out for several hours while staring out a window, i often feel when i get comfortable around a partner i fall into habits that i personally enjoy and/or find beneficial, however in a situationship, my actions could be seen as distant or disinterested in those moments.

B) Avoidance of catching/transmitting STD's, in consideration of both my partner and my own body. I know condoms would be a suggestion, but the wearing condoms phase of all of my situationships/relationships have realistically only lasted the first week of being physical with a new partner. More likely after the first few times of having sex condoms are eagerly left in a drawer waiting for their moment to live their life-purpose when I bring a new (sometimes random) partner back to my place (that i share with a roommate, for a short period of time until i move)

Original Post Conclusive Inquiry: Is there a balance to the desire of deviant devices?