Married F, late 30s. Used to cheat in prior relationships but then settled down a lot before I got married. Lockdown came along and I kinda went nuts because I was so bored. Became friends with someone on Reddit (told him I was partnered and that I wasn’t looking to mess around). We genuinely became close friends but there was definitely an undercurrent of attraction (at first I thought I was the only one who felt that way, but when I look back, he obviously felt it too). I made the first move and now I’m completely fucked. The sex is INSANE - just kissing him makes me dripping wet. We fuck raw (I’m on extremely reliable BC lol) and it’s like we’re on a different planet when we cum.

My partner is a wonderful person, and he doesn’t deserve this. My AP is such a sweet and amazing person too - he deserves someone in his life he doesn’t have to share. But I can’t fucking stop. I’ve even told my AP that I love him (not even just for the sex, lol, I genuinely love him as a friend too) and he’s said it back soooo, I’m very screwed.