I tried Ferber/CIO once and after 15 minutes I could tell that if I let it go on he would cry until he vomited. Can't do it. But I cannot fucking take this anymore. We have been cosleeping exclusively since about week four for naps and overnight because this kid refuses to sleep anywhere else. We tried everything. We even rented the Snoo. He can't be transferred and won't stay asleep without me. Zero success, not even once.

So now he mostly nurses to sleep, rocks to sleep, or gets driven around for two hours by dad when the thought of being touched by this baby for even one more goddamned minute has me crying. I lay down with him four times a day in the dark with the sound machine on and I have to go down for the night with him around 7pm, also in the dark with the sound machine on. I seriously cannot do another day of this. I really can't.

I have to keep the door open during the day in case my 2.5 year old needs me but I usually just put the TV on for him when we lay down because I just can't keep him entertained on his own without it. He still busts in and wakes the baby up half the time. I haven't spent more than 30 minutes with my husband since the baby was born, and zero of those minutes have been without either of our children present. Our apartment is a goddamned disaster. Laundry lives in the baskets. I haven't vacuumed in months. It's disgusting in here but I have zero time to do ANYTHING.

I can't let him CIO, my heart can't take it, and I'm afraid he would hurt himself crying. We did do Ferber with my oldest and he never had a concerning level of tears like this baby so he was sleep trained in like a day. What other methods are there to get him sleeping in the crib without me? Any success stories to share with similarly troublesome babies? Please fucking help me before I lose my mind.