I brought up the topic of having a more intimate connection with each other again after I shrunk and she seemed reluctant at first. For safety reasons we had not fooled around in the time after I shrunk since we heard many stories of gruesome accidents and other bad outcomes.

Last night we had this really special connection and it just felt right to try out. At first she was really understanding and asked me what my boundaries were. I told her that I would be okay with being inserted into her lady bits but asked her not to put me into her butthole. Its a hard boundary for me, I told her that being put in there would make me feel defiled on a spiritual level.

One thing let to another, she teased herself with my body, everything was great, until when she was really horny she impulsively put me in her butthole. She told me afterwards that she thought it would be special if I lost my anal virginity to her and that it would be like a sacrifice i would be making for her. She got herself off with me inside there. I think i was inside of her for 10 minutes.

I was livid and upset, screamed at her and that made her really mad. This morning she told me she would forgive me my screaming yesterday and was wondering why I was still upset. Do you know how I can move on from this? I still love her, is this a "me issue"? Should i learn to please her in that way and just accept feeling dirty and used to make her happy? Anyone got experiences with this?