I just need a safe environment with respect and trust but I want this badly.

I have a fantasy about being a cum toy to be honest. Having a guiding partner use me first and set me up to be a toy. I am on my knees bent over a bed. Panties pulled down between my legs. Made to watch sissy hypno and porn with ear buds in. A man or men come in and lube up. They ease into me, so as not to break me for being used through the day. They duck me and cum in me. Until they're done. As many loads as they want. Then they leave. They cum in my pussy or on my panties. This goes on till my partner is satisfied I've fulfilled my womanly role. Till I have taken enough cum I'm full. Then I'm made to wear a pad or tampon and keep it in. Pull my panties up and live with it in and