So first thing I’ll say is that I do not want anything in person. I’m in a long distance, straight relationship where this is a secret. I want it to remain that way. I’m just looking to explore and fantasize with someone and maybe do things by myself. Now to the good stuff… 😅😅

I’ve been struggling with this a lot lately about whether or not I am or want to be a sissy or not. I have been going in and out of the sissy rabbit hole a lot over the last year-ish. So I thought I would try again to see if I can find someone to chat to and connect with on here! I've tried a few times in the past and don't have the best of luck but fingers crossed! It often just falls apart within a few weeks for a wide variety of reasons, so I guess I'm just being optimistic here.

I don’t know if “sissy” is the right word for me since I’m not just wanting to be a slut bimbo for some guy to use me and fuck me and that’s it. I want so much more than sex. I want a relationship where someone helps me become the cute girl I want to be (before anyone asks I’m not trans but it is very close to that in some way, but it’s more a purely sexual feeling for me - it’s hard to explain, ask me more about it in chat lol). I want someone to fantasize with about being my daddy (or mommy 🤷🏻‍♂️ but daddy is probably more realistic) to help me become a cute girl like I know I want. I want you to ultimately be in charge of everything but still be gentle. You would have total 100% control over every aspect of my life but you still care about me and all that. Like, you decide what I wear and when, or what I do, and eventually when we have sex and what kind of sex. It’s the clothes honestly that get me the most, and being treated like the dainty cute girlfriend for someone who ultimately has total control of my life. If you're someone who also love the idea of essentially dressing me up in fun (realistic) girl clothes and helping me essentially be as close to a real girl as possible then I definitly think we will connect well! I don't currently have any clothes or anything (I've purged a few times...) but I am really wanting more. I'd love to explore that with you and maybe figure out what clothes I should order exactly to restart or kick-start my sissy/girly journey again!

I’m hoping to find something longer term even if that means dealing with some regular guilt/PNC. I hope you can understand when that happens. It wouldn’t be the first time I’ve purged 😅. I will also say that I'm super hesitant to share pics (particularly face pics) just for privacy reasons.

Sorry if this post has gotten long and rambled a little bit. I just want to explain in detail what I think I want and I hope I can find the right someone for this fantasy! Really looking to develop a real connection with people not just someone to message when horny. My DMs are open and I hope to hear from people!! I'll try my best to respond to everyone, but sometimes I'm simply unable to. Just please give me more than just a “hello what’s up” or a dick pic 😅. I’d love to hear what exactly you’re looking for and/or what intrigued you from here!

PS: if you send me a link to a cart on Temu or SHEIN or Amazon (or any clothing store you want) of clothes you’d buy me in a theoretical world, absolutely top of the line! I think I still have a post up about potentially buying carts or stuff someone sends me. I would love to do it again!