I have no clue if what I am going to say about the way a feel will make any sense at all but here we go. I believe I have double personality because on the outside world I like to behave like alfa and be in charge etc even if I would love to have chastity cage or be crossdressed under regular clothes and only my partner to know about it, but once I am indoors I crave to submit to my female partner totally, I am not in to guys at all no offense even if I love to worship my partner strap-on dildo very much but specially being “forced” to submit etc so I don’t know if i am a sissy or a crossdresser or just a pervert. I am in mostly of the kinks as long as it’s no permanent damage and the usual dark and ilegal stuff, no scat as well, I am curious about toilet play tho but never experienced it so I’m not sure, I just get excited at the taught of it. I look for a mistress that will love to dress me as a maid but plug and put me in chastity (beginner) and order and humiliate me around the house for her personal pleasure and amusement. I have huge fetish for nylons and stockings in special, I just love the way they feel on the skin. I love all types of bondage as well as being collared and being kept in a cage during for-play preferably restrained only able to worship my mistress pussy/ass and feet’s. I love to kiss and leak feat as long as they are clean and specially in nylons and I definitely love to have my ass pegged by my mistress. I have an open mind and I like to experience almost everything that my mistress will trow at me or at least I think I do but I definitely know that I will do my very best. I experience some crossdressing and pegging with my former wife but very little since she was a sub just like me, so we end up splitting. I am not interested in short term or random hookups, I am looking for a likeminded female/mistress partner for long term relationship/marriage. I know that what I am asking is very much impossible but I said that it’s worth asking. Thank you Looking forward to your DM s.