I'm a lifelong crossdresser, recently accepting that for my own benefit and personal growth I need to think more of men as romantic partners than anything else. I'm married right now, but want to open up myself to other possibilities, including divorce and re-marry as the wife the second time.

I was mostly obsesses with femininity (mine, trans or women in general), and that focus prevented me to appreciate men in general or become horny (boy-crazy) over them in particular. I have used mantras and porn to get myself horny whenever I look at a cock, and I want to extend that to more aspects of my life.

I'm seeking a relationship where I'm either devoting myself to a man, or I'm encouraged/trained/blackmailed to devote myself to a future man. My personal future holds feminization, hormones and surgeries, and I have many kinks (incl. bimbofication, maid training and servitude, humiliation and bondage games...).

Also open for new ideas or general discussion on how to train my brain on new ideas...