I’m sure this is generally shared by sissies especially more the young ones.

Many sissies such as myself tend to repress their feminine urges and try to focus more on being more masculine and living the “ideal” male life.

What if you do put the sissy away. You get a good job, a wife or a girlfriend, maybe a family. You suppressed your urges and live a happy life as a man.

What if all that previously described is just taken away. You get fired from your job, your wife leaves you and takes the kids and now you’re all alone. But in the back of your head your sissy thoughts still fester and come back as strong as they were.

Now you’re an older man. You missed out on your chance of being a young sissy and maybe even taking extra steps to feminize. You live in regret for the rest of your life that you chose the materialistic, “ideal” male life instead of one where you could’ve followed all your sissy dreams.

I don’t think these thought I have will ever go away. I can try to repress them for my whole life even but it’s almost ingrained in me. So to go through all of life as something I’m not a 100% with and realizing that I missed out on so many experiences is my greatest fear.