Here's my little journey:

M28 from Finland here. I'm a small closet crossdresser/sissy these days. Been that for 11 months.

Only had girlfriends before, never done anything with men. Been single now for 2 years, and haven't done anything with a woman since. 😔

So I started crossdressing, and it felt shameful but exciting, And it just seemed to evolve. Bought more and more feminine things for each month. After a few month, I got my first butt plug, promised myself that I would never get a dildo. As it felt like a "straight" guy can't do that... but I was wrong.

Now I own all kinds of lingerie, skirts, heels, nails, makeup, plugs, dildos, gags etc. Planned on quitting crossdressing at some point and find a new girlfriend again. I'm not interested in being femme with a girl. Now as I've continued this journey and have started to think a lot more about men sexually. As I feel feminine, my desire for girls fades. Hand in hand with dressing up more and playing with my toys, I've started to realize that I watch a lot more sissy hypno videos, and never really "regular" porn anymore, and also BBC content. 😵‍💫

Always wanted to call myself a closet crossdresser, but been hearing that I'm a sissy. And I look like one, and behave like one.

So how do you accept that you're a sissy? I know it's only a "label", we don't need to discuss that. Just a bit afraid of becoming a sissy permanently, and never be with a girl anymore if I continue to do what I do and sink deeper into "feminization". 🫢

Have a nice day, just wanted to write a little bit about my frustration. 🙄