hello! Usually when I write these being completely honest it’s usually just because I’m temporarily horny and don’t really care about the outcome, I’m just trying to get off. This time is different. I’m in need of help from a dom or even a fellow sissy. To make a long story as short as possible, I have had sexual urges towards feminization sissification etc for basically all of my life since puberty (maybe even before, I remember having dreams of my bedroom being pink when I was very little). Instead of confronting these things about me head on I have instead devolved into a sissy porn addiction and alongside that an unhealthy relationship life. While I have been watching porn, getting on camera for men etc I have left a continued destruction of relationships with girls involving cheating, the inability to commit and more. In my opinion, I think this stems from the fact that I am fully not able to have a relationship with these women where I am fully sexually open. I am currently in a relationship with a girl in my grade in college. She’s great. But it’s obvious to me that I have a lot of things to figure out and discover for myself and if I don’t do that it will just lead me down the same path of destruction and hurting people. Alongside this- our families are extremely close friends. I am seeking help on my path forward. Should I try to incorporate it into our relationship? Should I move on and face my sissy desires?i live in a very conservative area, if this were to get out I would be very concerned and unhappy. I assume a dom would have the best awnsers for this. I would love to have a conversation that can maybe lead elsewhere in the future.