I have had a few things happen to me along my journey to realizing im a true born sissy. One time in my defiance of my true nature, I figured maybe I can get strong and be a man and went to the gym. I'll never forget that day because it sticks out in my head like it was only yesterday.

I went to the weight room and being tiny framed I wanted to start working on lifting. I lifted a 5 pound free weight to curl with and as I began to do reps, my wrist slipped a bit and I dropped the weight on the ground. I scurried to pick it up as it rolled away and looked up horrified. I was sorrounded by a bunch of big real men lifting things that were insanely big and heavy. It felt like everyone was looking and laughing at me but in reality I just probably felt insecure and nervous. I quickly put the weight back and left.

I never went back to the weight room again, it felt like a mens only room, it felt like I was so differrent. Here I am feeling girly, weak and subby and I thought I could even be remotely like them? I didn't stand a chance.

Failing as a boy, realizing my difference and weakness, seeing my lack of strength, willpower and masculinity was one of the many things that got me on my path to realizing if you can't fight it, embrace it. I am a cute, girly, tiny, weak sissy and thats just how it is.